Less Hair , Don't care! #bald,#freestuff#notfeeling sorry

Some days are just too quick. I feel like my life is getting too short for fast days. What the hell are you going to do? Some days I like the shorter feeling days . Because when my pain level is bad I just want to sleep. I feel bad not playing with my granddaughter. I feel bad having no energy, and being crabby for the day.
Some days are good even with the pain. I can push through.
Well the theme of this blog "no hair, don't care " does not apply to me so much anymore. My hair grew back it really is kind of crazy looking, and so curly. I was more used to wavy but this salt and pepper  haired grandma has got some curl.
I still feel If and when the time comes and people going through chemo lose their hair it shouldn't make them feel less. Less beautiful . Some people seem to feel ashamed, You are sick, and trying to get better, nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about. Quite the opposite, That wonderful bald head is a message to the world that you are fighting the battle of your life.
Be strong. It will get better. Have faith! Have faith in yourself! Love Yourself.
Some people will be assholes and laugh when they see you , Hey that did not bother me one little bit, honestly it didn't. I laughed at how I looked when my son in law shaved my head for me. I made jokes when I was wearing a bandana, so I wouldn't get sunburn on my scalp!! I told my 3 year old granddaughter I was pirate grandma!
I felt some people  felt discomfort at seeing my bald head, one woman said her child would ask why I was bald .Sarcasm " Oh the horror" , I said explain to her That I was sick, but my hair will grow back. She thought it would be awful for an 9 year old to hear that something could make you lose your hair!!! OMG!!
What was funny was the girl knew. She wanted to know if I was sick like the St. Jude's kids, I said yes. See now ,Mommy  she can handle it!!
 I did get some free stuff for being bald, sometimes someone would buy me a coffee or bagel, an wish me well in my fight I always said thanks but I said don't feel sorry for me , I don't. I have not and will not feel sorry for myself . Time is too precious!


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