Why does life go so damn fast?

 Some days I feel sad, and just do not want to be around anyone. The feeling does not usually last very long. I do not suffer from depression. I have some down moments partly due to medication I take , an sometimes due to being so damn tired! I have days where I only have gotten a couple of hours sleep the night before and it wears me down. Some days I feel angry at nothing and everything at the same times. Most days I am enjoying time with my daughter and granddaughter. Just being in the same room with my granddaughter Laity brightens my day. 

It's so hard for me to wrap around my head that this beautiful girl is 7 years old. How the hell did time pass so fast. I love that she lives here for now at least. I sometimes feel selfish for feeling that  way . I know my daughter would love to be in her own place. 

I know that none of us knows how much time we have left on this Earth ,but having had cancer is a huge reality check about how short life is. It's kind of funny now that I am almost 65 I have less time less left that I have lived. It's an odd feeling because I sort of feel like the 65 years went so damn fast. 

It is sad how fast life goes and I am pretty disgusted that this country has been in a pandemic  for around 16  months and we had to spend so much of it on lockdown. I'm too old to lose a year and a half of my precious time. People anger me when there is a solution to help keep people safe  and it's FREE! It's a damn vaccine. What I don't understand is why people spend time spreading falsehoods about the pandemic, saying covids fake or saying that won't take the vaccine because it's not safe.

Even though many do know it is safe, they have made it political, it's absolutely disgusting. I'd like to be able to spend time doing fun things with Laity in my remaining time ,and feel safe . Not having to worry about the pandemic. It's hard knowing that 615 thousand lives have been lost, and some selfish liars just don't give a damn about other people, I am vaccinated ,I will continue to mask up and socially distance. 

I will say I am am not just sitting on my couch everyday . But I do a lot. I feel like I am missing out on making memories for laity to remember me by. One year of my life does not seem like much but she is only 7. She has been wearing her damn mask, she spent a whole year doing remote learning plus 4 months the year before . If there was not a vaccine I would not be as disgusted as I am . I would not be as angry as I am day in and day out. That selfish bastards wont get a vaccine . 

Things seemed to be getting better . People we getting the vaccine , We were lowering the curve. Getting closer to being somewhat back to normal but then the "unmask" us crowd, covid19 is fake crowd . Life is too damn short to live it like this . Why does life go so fast? I'm not going to say it is not fair because it is what it is.  I wish I could show the ignorant what is  right in front of them. I wish they could realize life is short enough. I wish I could somehow get them to see from my 65 years of life experience that we don't have all the time in the world like they think. You are wasting my memory making time. I won't always be here. I'd like to have some normal years left. I'd like to look forward to having some normalcy not too far in the future but it won't happen till people come out from the denial conspiracy theory  bullshit cult thy are in. Why don't they understand that covid numbers going up and  hospitals being filled is the fault of those spreading the virus. not the government, not the president . Take RESPONCIBILITY! Wear a damn mask, get the vaccine, Please so we can move forward rather than backwards. Please help listen to Medical experts. 

Life goes too damn fast. once a day turns to night is over. You will never get that day back. I don't want you to wake up with regret that you PERSONALLY had the opportunity to help save lives but refused to because of some insane political leaning you have. Remember Life is short. The life you save may be your own. Your child or your parents. Please Get vaccinated against covid . it's easier now than ever . Want to be Mask Free? Then mask up correctly, wash your hand. Get the vaccine and lets go back to living .Like I said  who knows how many days we have left. Please lets stop this political drama and lets' help each other live out the time we have left. 

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