Am I finished?

I finished Chemotherapy almost a year ago. I have finished radiation. I am still on a daily medication called Letrozole. It is a hormone blocker,Dr. Lee said I needed to take it for 5 years. I am going back to the doctor every 3 months for blood work , They will remove my port next year. So am I done with treatment? No, I don't feel I am. I don't feel like it at all. I have not been told I am cancer free and do not think I will be told that till my 5 year anniversary with the letrozole  .I am still healing from the treatment . I still have some side effects, one which may be around as long as I am.

I Have a pretty positive out look. But some days I just feel down.Part of that is chronic pain. I have neuropathy in my feet from the chemo.The pain goes from not too bad to excruciating and the worst part is not knowing when it will be acting up the worst. If it keeps hurting , I may give in and try gabapentin , it is a medication that may help. I just prefer not to be on so much medicine . I do not want to be a person who takes meds to help the side effect of other meds! I meant to write more oten I dont have much quiet time,or when I do I am not able to grab the laptop.


 I wanted to write about what going through treatment was like , It was hard. But not like I have seen on T.V. . For the most part I drove myself ,took the advice of the chemo nurses, and the radiation techs and elt pretty well. TIRED , Very tired sometimes exhausted , but pretty well. I am going to try to write more often . I thought I'd be recovered now but who knew, This shit takes time. The hair has grown, and kind of looks crazy.  I will be more detailed next blog. But my feet have just gone crazy.

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