A year later, still feel like shit. Cancer sucks!

 Tired of no sleep because of the pain I am in 24-7! Funny I've read in other people's blogs how the moment your hair starts growing back in everyone around you forgets you had cancer. I promise I am not looking for pity, Maybe a little empathy. I was never told I was cancer free by any of my doctors. I am still suffering the effects of chemo and problems due to my surgeries and radiation. My doctors do not seem to care about pain. Or maybe they just really nothing they can do for nerve pain. 
Conversations go a bit like this. "How are you feeling?" "Well my nerve pain in my feet is worse, sometimes I feel the same pain in my hip. " "It always hurts sometimes more some times less". "1-10 scale?" "Today about a 6". "Your blood work is good, you are doing really well ." Yesterday,was more like an 8'.
 "Your hair is coming in  great." Yeah, I am having issues with pain in my breast from radiation also." Did you talk to your radiation dr?" Yes, I mentioned it to Dr Mullins." He said it should go away ... eventually. " Is there anything I can take to help?" Gabapentin helps with the nerve pain for some people., I do not like to recommend it because  of the side effects...." his voice trails off , as he types in  what ever complaints I have. Don't get me wrong I love my doctors, but they cant do anything for my pain. 

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