No hair , don't care.                                               I want to write down how I am feeling . I want to write down things that I have not seen written about going through cancer treatment. People all talk about how brave you must be ,how strong. They look at you and say you look great! But their eyes keep looking up at that big old bald head.               You know they are looking past you and seeing some St. Jude's kid.  I do not want your pity please.
I honestly do not care I lost my hair. It is certainly not the worst thing that's happened lately. 😊.AsThe picture shows I have a "port". It is implanted under my skin and its used to attach my IV's. Never heard of them,but since the chemo meds are so strong it is preferred by medical staff that you have one. Plus it is way easier that trying to get IV's in my arm. If you have a question any questions feel free to as. I will be blogging about my personal account of going through breast cancer. Today is already late ,so I will start at the beginning tomorrow. 

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