Breast Cancer and other life stuff

 Some days I feel sad, and just do not want to be around anyone. The feeling does not usually last very long. I do not suffer from depression. I have some down moments partly due to medication I take , an sometimes due to being so damn tired! I have days where I only have gotten a couple of hours sleep the night before and it wears me down. Some days I feel angry at nothing and everything at the same times. Most days I am enjoying time with my daughter and granddaughter. Just being in the same room with my granddaughter Laity brightens my day.  It's so hard for me to wrap around my head that this beautiful girl is 7 years old. How the hell did time pass so fast. I love that she lives here for now at least. I sometimes feel selfish for feeling that  way . I know my daughter would love to be in her own place.  I know that none of us knows how much time we have left on this Earth ,but having had cancer is a huge reality check about how short life is. It's kind of funny ...

Summer . 2021. Almost over the pandemic? Birthday party time!! Day after tomorrow is my sweet granddaughter's 7th birthday. Everyone thinks they have the best grandkid. I honestly do not know how we got the beautiful, smart , funny as hell one that we got. I don't know how we warp speeded through the last seven years , but I sure as hell don't know how she is going to be SEVEN.  She and I have been through our own health battles .I remember how fragile she was when she was born. But she is a fighter . She is strong , you would not know now that she had a tough beginning.  She is bright , she made it through this school year  , and almost half of last year , doing school remotely. She was able to do well with her school work during this pandemic . She has computer skills much better than mine. Her over all school work was great . What impressed me was how quickly she could improve her reading skills . She seemed to have a bit of trouble in the beginning of the school ...