I love You most of all.

 I love you the most.

Because I am careful who I love.

You would never

purposely hurt me.

I love you most, 

because you are worthy of love.

Nothing is perfect,

not me, not love.

My heart fills 

when I think of you. 

Nothing , no one could change

the way I feel.

Oh, I can be mad at you, and not understand 

something you have done. 

But I will always love you.

Till I take my last breath. 

I love you most 

of all.

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