Happy New Year? My word for the year 2023-try.

 Well, Happy New Year. What ever the fuck that means. I am having a bad day already and it's just started. I'm tired of being the one that looks the other way , the one seeing some good in people that isn't really there. 

I am a fool to care about anyone who does not care about me.I do not like being quiet about how I feel anymore. I started thinking about making a resolution this year. I usually think of something and forget it pretty quickly. This year I thought I really wanted to be kinder. But it may be too hard. when there are so many entitled ,hate filled people. I want to pass on kindness, but sometimes it seems impossible to show kindness to ignorant , mean people. I want to show my granddaughter a grandma worth remembering. 

I mean what's the point of having lived if the world would have been better without you. I want her to see me act kind to people who don't seem on the surface at least  to deserve kindness. I want her to know we do not know what others are going through . Recently there have been a number of suicides in the news . That is why I'm thinking about trying to be kinder. I do not feel like I am the one that can pull someone in from the ledge but I do not want to be the ONE that's the last straw , the one that finally topples them over.                                                                                                                                                                                         I will try to be kinder. I am not saying i will not swear at drivers that i think are IDIOTS! I will actually TRY to be kind to those I do not even know. I'll hold a door. I help pick up dropped groceries. I'll tip the server that forgot something. I will give out compliments , especially to people who look like they could use one. I like to think I am a kind person but recent events have tried my patience. I will try. It's the best that this old lady can do. 

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