ALMOST CHRISTMAS, Almost 1 year ago I heard CANCER!
Almost a year since my diagnosis. I thought I'd be long through Treatment by now. It started with a diagnosis that seemed to keep me waiting forever to hear. I knew the moment I felt the lump, that I had cancer, I am not a person who jumps to conclusions, nor am I an alarmist. I did not have a family history of breast cancer. I just knew.
I am almost a year away from hearing the surgeon tell me it is cancer, both breast. She did not have to convince e to have a double mastectomy. I almost cut her off as she was telling me options, to tell her I wanted the cancer gone, all of it. She said it could be a lumpectomy. She would decide when she opened me up. She talked of trying to save the nipple. Maybe a lumpectomy on the left as it was a lesser degree of cancer in that breast. She told me I caught it early. (I thought that meant radiation and done) I don't want a mastectomy on the right ,a lumpectomy on the left.I don't want to have to come back for additional surgeries. Would it be smart to just have a double mastectomy? Yes it would . There would be much less a chance of reoccurrence. At the hospital we discussed it one more time. I was sure . Then she said I will take a look but we will likely do a double mastectomy and reconstruction.
When I awoke in the recovery room I think I was screaming , IT HURTS SO MUCH!!!. I am not sur if I was screaming but I know the nurse gave me a shot immediately, I was still in a lot of pain , And I think I thought I woke up during surgery or too soon . A second shot of morphine was soon followed by a third. I think I did go back to sleep for a while after that.
When I woke up I had an I.V. with a morphine drip. I asked for more meds as soon I started feeling pain. I was afraid to feel that excruciating pain again.
when the operation was fully explained to me in her office I sort of faded out from what she was saying.
I will say my healing was especially slow as I had just been diagnosed with diabetes,during my pre-surgical testing.
I still have a lot of healing to go through, even though I have finished Chemo and radiation.I am now on 1 pill a day, a hormone blocker that I need to take for 5 years. I will write more about chemo and radiation and I will try to write more often.
Almost a year since my diagnosis. I thought I'd be long through Treatment by now. It started with a diagnosis that seemed to keep me waiting forever to hear. I knew the moment I felt the lump, that I had cancer, I am not a person who jumps to conclusions, nor am I an alarmist. I did not have a family history of breast cancer. I just knew.
I am almost a year away from hearing the surgeon tell me it is cancer, both breast. She did not have to convince e to have a double mastectomy. I almost cut her off as she was telling me options, to tell her I wanted the cancer gone, all of it. She said it could be a lumpectomy. She would decide when she opened me up. She talked of trying to save the nipple. Maybe a lumpectomy on the left as it was a lesser degree of cancer in that breast. She told me I caught it early. (I thought that meant radiation and done) I don't want a mastectomy on the right ,a lumpectomy on the left.I don't want to have to come back for additional surgeries. Would it be smart to just have a double mastectomy? Yes it would . There would be much less a chance of reoccurrence. At the hospital we discussed it one more time. I was sure . Then she said I will take a look but we will likely do a double mastectomy and reconstruction.
When I awoke in the recovery room I think I was screaming , IT HURTS SO MUCH!!!. I am not sur if I was screaming but I know the nurse gave me a shot immediately, I was still in a lot of pain , And I think I thought I woke up during surgery or too soon . A second shot of morphine was soon followed by a third. I think I did go back to sleep for a while after that.
When I woke up I had an I.V. with a morphine drip. I asked for more meds as soon I started feeling pain. I was afraid to feel that excruciating pain again.
when the operation was fully explained to me in her office I sort of faded out from what she was saying.
I will say my healing was especially slow as I had just been diagnosed with diabetes,during my pre-surgical testing.
I still have a lot of healing to go through, even though I have finished Chemo and radiation.I am now on 1 pill a day, a hormone blocker that I need to take for 5 years. I will write more about chemo and radiation and I will try to write more often.
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