Cancer--took so long for the doctors to speak the word

It's been awhile since I've wanted to start writing about going through cancer treatment. It all started a few months back when I was going to have my yearly physical. I might mention I hate going to the doctors. I knew it was time for my annual Mammogram too. Hate those even more. I always get the tech having a bad day . She squeezes my boobs into the machine ,which is too high. I tell her this she does not care. I stand on my toes so not to pull my boobage off my chest wall. Then she insist while I am still trapped in the machine to "please, do not stand on your toes." Then I do what I am told she pushes some buttons and I am ready to go on my merry way . (right after I check to see if my nipples are on the wall somewhere). But no she says wait she says! The next couple of days I wait to see my PC (primary Care ) doctor. Dr Shoenfeld, I like him a lot , it's just a hassle going. peeing in a cup , blood draws, getting weighed. Hey at least that was good I was down 16 lbs!! hoo hoo. I go home to await test results. In the meantime I told the doc, that I did the mammo first because I did feel a lump.
         Well a few days later a call usually suffices and doc says yada yada yada see you in a year. But no, this time I have to go in to get the results. So I know it's bad news. My doctor being the kind hearted person he is ,  only says there was something suspicious on your mammo. I want you to see another doctor. Did he say surgeon? I wasn't sure . I knew then I had cancer, he didn't have to say it. So I go in a couple of days to a new doctor , oh joy! The name on the building was Some person's name Barry something I think. But it had a small title underneath cancer center. I spoke with the doctor she was nice,  but still no mention of the "c" word. I wanted straight up answers , and was told go back where you went and now get a 3D Mammo. There is something that looks suspicious in your right breast. Well I went to a different Center, but the same business ,Zwanger Presiri. I didn't want bitchy woman giving me this mammo.
Told this lady I was short and she believed me ,didn't hurt at all , which surprised me.Had to wait again for results  but I knew any way , just needed to know what  we were going to do . So I saw Dr Hodyl, my surgeon. She showed me the mammo films and yep, she still does not say the "c" word. Let's get a biopsy or 3 . 2in the right breast and one in the left. There is something small in the left breast. So again I have to wait. In the meantime I said Dr. Hodyl I want to know if it's cancer I just want to move forward and do what ever we have to do. But I did not feel afraid. I am still not afraid. 
But no, Id still have to wait to hear a doctor say you have cancer, it seems to be like that on television , it was not what happened in my case. 

And wait you do and wait .
I will continue next post. until then God bless 

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